I was in a three-year relationship with a boy who I thought I was in love with. We were going on good, and we had unprotected sex all the time. So it was shocking when I told him I was pregnant, and the first thought he had was that it could not have been his. This guy was the only person I was having sex with. I tried to convince him that it had to be his child but he was convinced otherwise.
From the day I told him I was pregnant, he became a totally different man. I used to cry every day about the situation. One time I went to his house to try and convince him some more and he gave me a prescription to go to the pharmacy and said that it would be some pills for me to do an abortion. He got the prescription from a doctor that he was really close with and said I should get the money on my own because its not his and he’s just helping me out!
At that time I was 17 years of age, I found out I was pregnant in July in the summer holidays and September I would be a first-year student in college. (I already got accepted), and I didn’t want to disappoint my parents, because regardless of having a boyfriend, I always did well in school. I got good grades had lots of awards. So with all of that on my mind, I decided to get the money from a friend to fill the prescription.
When I got the pills I instantly Googled them, and they were indeed abortion pills and I read the instructions on how to properly take them. At this time I was about 5 weeks pregnant.
I inserted some of the pills, and took some orally, and started to bleed a few hours later. I was so scared that I would die in the process, but I did it anyway; it wasn’t an easy decision. During the whole process, I was very weak. I still didn’t tell my parents, when I was bleeding they thought it was my normal menstrual cycle.
At this point, I decided to break all communication with my boyfriend too. So I was by myself in the situation. Now, whenever I see babies I instantly get sad. I also fear that I won’t be able to have children when I finish college. If I could go back in time I wouldn’t have done an abortion.