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Hey šŸ‘‹ Good night I donā€™t know where to start from but I did 2 abortion one in 2015 and one in 2017 and up to this day I sometimes cry myself to sleep.

Its hard! In 2015 I just left high school with only 3 subjects, I couldnā€™t have a baby plus my relationship was on the verge off falling apart. 

I went the bandoloo way and as expected I almost diedā€¦ The pain I felt that night I could have push my head through a grill and not feel it šŸ˜­ that was the worst night of my life. Signs of conception were still inside me and I ended up at the hospital. Long story short, the hospital took care of it and me, and I was discharged soon after. 

2017 I ended up back in the same boat I begged and pleaded with this man, ā€œplease let us keep our babyā€, ā€œwe will get helpā€ etc. He said no Iā€™m too young blah blahā€¦ I ended up at doctor who did it for $25,000 this time - it was a new method, the suction one. I went on the bed and he was trying to dilate me to 1 inch or something of that sort I saw my ā€˜babyā€™ in a containerā€¦ šŸ˜­

I was 1 month and some days the both time I did itā€¦ I wish i could tell them Iā€™m so sorry šŸ˜­